The other day I was walking in my neighborhood on a busy corner. I was in the middle of texting my husband something when my phone was violently ripped from my grasp. I looked up in shock and saw a teenager running down the street with my phone, laughing. He had two friends with him and both looked as astonished as I was. Just as shockingly, a huge mama roar came out of my body. “NOOOOOO!” I growled. “Give me back my phone. You cannot take my phone. Bring it back NOW. This is NOT ok.” And the the friend who was standing there, mouth open, staring at this crazy woman screaming at his stupid friend, “Tell him to give me my phone back.” Now I would never have thought of myself as someone who would react this way and I don’t think I would have if I had felt that I was in any danger of bodily harm. This was a high school student who was pulling a stupid prank and I was the adult who was calling him out. Still, I was rattled. Well, I think he was too. He never expected someone to yell like that in such a public place. (And I was loud and cussing- I’ve spared you my exact words.) And can you believe it, he gave me back my phone. I walked away shaking. I felt scared that they would follow me, worried about the world and neighborhood I am raising my kids in, angry that this happened and also grateful that I even got my phone back.
That night I had trouble sleeping. Fear was the emotion that was closest to the surface. I don’t want to live in fear, so I acknowledged the feelings of fear and anxiousness, but I did not let them govern me or eclipse my awareness of the good in this world. Instead, I reminded myself that I could deepen and demonstrate my faith and love for humanity BECAUSE of this experience, not despite it.
In writing this I am also affirming that there is no worldly circumstance that can take away my power. I have the strength and wisdom to meet any and all of life’s challenges. Shifting from fear to love has been deep medicine for me as I know it can be for you too. Whether you are struggling with a physical struggle, emotional concern, or a financial struggle I believe/KNOW that you always know what to do, where to go, and what to say- Just like I did.
May we all live bravely, vibrantly and boldly! (More to come on this topic!)
Please share in the comments below a fearful experience you overcame with love.